([info]dark_vanity) wrote,
@ 2004-02-26 04:20:00
Previous Entry  Add to memories!  Tell a Friend  Next Entry
Current mood: depressed

this is all very hectic... i tell her how i feel and she blows up on me, i tell her my thoughts, she throws them into my face and says that it hurt her, i say the wrong thing... and im done for. she had family therapy today, that was her excuse... she was ultra sensative and took everything personally. i told her about how i cant stand the way i hurt people or disappoint them and how if i wasnt around that it would be alot easier on other people. she exploded on me and now she doesnt trust me. im walking on eggshells.
she made plans with me cory and steph to hangout this weekend lastweek... apparently she forgot and made plans to go hang out with a friend she hasnt seen in awhile. now, if she goes with the friend she ditches 3 people, if she goes with us, she ditches one friend... either way im not going to be happy... because she will hang out with us and be all pissed off... or go with her friend and i will feel like she ditched me and 2 friends that she made plans with a week ago. i dont know. then she gets pissed at me when her shit talking friend becky starts running her mouth saying her boyfriend is gonna kick my ass, and steve(beckys bf) is gonna slap kat if she says anything... now if anyone here knows the way i am and knows my history and background... they know i will in fact end his life. no one touches kat in a harmful manner... hes dead when i see him. well its all confusing and ive been here with cory and playing neopets allday and argueing with kat which caused me to have an anxiety attack and i freaked out... well yeah thats about it... she doesnt understand when i put, im "freaking out", it actually means that im FREAKING OUT with an anxiety attack, so she keeps hammering the nail... anyways i g2g. later kids... i love you kat


(16 comments) - (Post a new comment)


[info]orderofthefly
2004-02-26 02:04 pm UTC (link)
why cant she just bring the freind along with the 3 other people?

(Reply to this) (Thread)

[info]mdfmkkmfdm
2004-02-26 02:19 pm UTC (link)
no no see, that would be a smart thing to do , and it would solve most of the problems listed, but nope.

(Reply to this) (Parent)(Thread)

[info]born2bbitchy
2004-02-26 08:45 pm UTC (link)
Lol... of course not ;)

(Reply to this) (Parent)

[info]mlnchlykat
2004-02-26 06:11 pm UTC (link)
Maybe it's because my friend I haven't seen in 3 months
1. Doesn't know Ivan, Cory, or Steph
2. Would feel like a 5th wheel
3. Would get depressed, because she can't see her boyfriend for a very long time, because he got deported and is stuck in the philippines until who knows when
4. Had plans of seeing me, and Kayzel... and she's not gonna ditch Kayzel

(Reply to this) (Parent)(Thread)

[info]facethemasses
2004-02-29 01:00 pm UTC (link)
I feel for your friend on that deported bit.. Well, not quite the same but my boyfriend leaves for the Navy in a month. :*(

(Reply to this) (Parent)

[info]mlnchlykat
2004-02-26 06:35 pm UTC (link)
I can't say anything here, because if I respond here I'll come out yet again looking like the oversensitive bitch... Sorry if I get a little upset when the guy im in love with is thinking everyone might be better off if he were dead... you didnt say werent around... But whatever I probly just twisted your words around an got the wrong message again... I love you
~
V4N17Y SLU7: ive honestly considered killing myself to
make everyones life easier for the past few weeks
V4N17Y SLU7: i talked to danny about it and everything
V4N17Y SLU7: he kinda was freaked out
mlnchlykat: ... i cant believe you'd do that.... i cant believe you'd
think that

(Reply to this)


[info]kage_kumo
2004-02-26 09:58 pm UTC (link)
Ivan you gotta sort this stuff out man. I'm here you help you if you wanna talk. You just gotta talk to me.

(Reply to this)


[info]i_playdead
2004-02-27 01:57 am UTC (link)
Ivan, we should drink sometime. You should call me and we'll do alcohol. It always solves problems.

(Reply to this) (Thread)

[info]i_playdead
2004-02-27 01:59 am UTC (link)
And P.S. Killing yourself won't solve anything.

(Reply to this) (Parent)(Thread)

[info]born2bbitchy
2004-02-27 03:45 am UTC (link)
But wasting yourself in a bottle will?

(Reply to this) (Parent)(Thread)

[info]i_playdead
2004-02-29 09:46 pm UTC (link)
Actually, drinking allows you to forget the past/problems, and focus on the present times, and the fun people around you. It also provides an anti-fear medicine, that helps approach new indivduals. A great way to meet a new girl. It's fun, easy, and very refreshing. You should try it sometime.

(Reply to this) (Parent)(Thread)

[info]born2bbitchy
2004-02-29 11:36 pm UTC (link)
Actually a lil' bit ago I was on my way to being an alcoholic... and I know now that nothing good can come from drinking. It slipped me deeper into depression... and dragged me deeper into my thoughts... not trying to preach... Just don't want the same thing for Ivan.

(Reply to this) (Parent)(Thread)

[info]i_playdead
2004-03-01 12:03 am UTC (link)
yeah, I understand. Drinking can cause problems if used too much. But admit it, it's fun every now and again. Ivan, we should still hang out though. You're the funniest kid.

(Reply to this) (Parent)(Thread)

[info]born2bbitchy
2004-03-01 05:30 am UTC (link)
I don't know... it can get out of control and you don't even realize it. :-/ Sorry if I seemed judgemental at all.

(Reply to this) (Parent)
cheer up kid
[info]xeyesorex
2004-02-28 12:47 am UTC (link)
hello there ivan, its been awhile. killing yourself is never a good option, itd be nice to talk to you sometime. IM me whenever u want...

(Reply to this)


[info]facethemasses
2004-02-29 12:56 pm UTC (link)
IVVVAAAAAANNNNNN!!!!

I just downloaded stepmania but don't know how to put songs onto the damn game... Where and how do I do that?! If you know, please help the retarded cracker! Danke ♥

(Reply to this)

(16 comments) - (Post a new comment)

Create an Account
Forgot your login or password?
Login w/ OpenID
English • Español • Deutsch • Русский…